Hello, Motivation Monday! It’s time to rock and roll, shake the cobwebs out, and get moving and a groovin’.
The weekend was fraught with peril-it was the hubs’ big 4-0, and Orthodox Easter (Kalo Pascha! to any other Orthodox out there). Next weekend will be another whopper: our anniversary and Mother’s Day. Will the insanity ever end? Yes. Yes it will. Things are SOOOOO much less stressful since I’ve given up on the “all-or-nothing” attitude. It helps me to put things in perspective, reminding me that a half slice of the hubs’ b-day cheesecake was not going to break the calorie bank, or undo all my hard work.
Of course, if I ate like I did last night, I would, but that’s the beauty of special occasions. They are called so because they aren’t everyday occasions. A big part of changing my life has been about changing how I think and react to things. In the past I might have denied myself the cake. Or I would have had it and then felt tremendous guilt.
These days, I like to redirect my mental energy into positively programming my subconscious. Instead of focusing on what I want to avoid, I focus on what I want to achieve. You know how you might be climbing to some precarious height, and someone else yells, “Don’t look down!”, and of course, the only thing you want to do is look down? This is the same concept. For me, this revolves mostly around food, but sometimes around my workouts too.
For instance, I haven’t worked out yet today. I feel bad about it, but I haven’t yet done anything about it. However, when I was reading up for today’s entry, I realized that I’m the one holding myself back. I have had rather dismal results in the weight loss department (I’ll post updates tomorrow), but I have lost significant inches in my hips and waist. But instead of focusing on the improvements, I have unfortunately focused on the number on the scale. So, in my head, I’m telling myself that I’ll never get where I want to be. And of course, what is the outward result of that? I ain’t done shit today!
I’ve determined I need to focus and shower myself with positive affirmations consistently. I know, it sounds stupid, and my inner pessimistic cynic is sneering in mockery. But here’s the truth: if you’re already telling yourself that it’s not worth it, then it won’t be, whatever it might be. Believing that positive thinking doesn’t work becomes a self-fulfilling negative affirmation. You can’t think yourself thin, but you can change the way you think to make your fitness and weight loss goals totally achievable.
If I’m just sowing weeds with my negative thoughts, I’ll never see my goals achieved. I have spoken before about changing my inner monologue, but like a lot of things, this is something I need to practice everyday. And I have been neglecting that part of my growth. Sometimes, I feel like I’m trying to juggle a toddler, a baby grand, a medium hippo, and 3 camouflaged balls, trying to keep up with all the things I need to do on the outside, I forget to work on the inside stuff at the same time.
So, instead of the voice in my head so insidiously whispering that I’m not going to workout today, so why did I bother with the sports bra? I’m whispering back to it that I’ll be working out when I get home from picking up my son from school. That I will make time for anything I’m committed to. That I love working out. That the scale may not be budging, but my muscles are growing stronger. That I am the only one responsible for my results. To quit bitching and get fit.
Instead of telling myself not to look down, I’m going to tell myself to look up, and ahead.